Friday, August 10, 2012

No Matter The Situation, I Am Still Blessed!

There has been some very serious turmoil going on in my life lately. I have been under such stress that I believe it was effecting my health. My neck was always stiff, my hands would go to sleep, my headaches were going almost none stop and I always felt such fatigue. I know I shared with you guys about my hands before and the doctor putting me on some medication but he couldn't find a reason for the problem. Well I think it was stress!!

I was out on the patio early this morning with Lucy and was thinking of how pleasurable the air felt. It was only about 70 degrees which right now almost feels chilly due to our highs being over 100. I sat on the patio just thinking of how glorious the sky looked and let the gentle breeze soothe me. I know it might be hard to believe but I am a thinker. I am constantly thinking about things, most people would feel it is a random thinking process but I can always trace my thought patterns back to each other. I have even tried to explain it a few times when someone would ask "what brought that up" only to see that dazed and confused look on the person's face.Oh but anyway, I was thinking of what a blessing the cool morning was and then it lead to me thinking about how blessed I am.


I will not go into details, but my stress came to a head on Sunday night. It's a rough thing deciding when enough is enough, especially when you have prayed and prayed and want to continue to have hope. But there comes a time in some situations where we have to say 'THIS IS ENOUGH'. And it had come that time for me. In the aftermath of the situation I was able to talk to two of my friends who were so supportive of my decisions and actions. In the following days I have heard from other friends and some family members and they all let me know that I had done everything I could do and that I was given little choice but to make the decision I did. While my decisions still concerns me I am so lucky to have a wonderful support group of family members and friends who know what I have experienced the last few years, know the problems I have had and are behind my decision 100 percent.

I have said many times that I am not a religious person, I see religion in the same way I see politics...everyone has a reason for their beliefs and choices but they shouldn't try to tell others they are wrong for what the believe or choose, I am however a highly spiritual person. I don't think I pray as much as I talk to God, which is daily, several times a day and some days it's almost constantly. One of the hard things to do is to pray and wait for an answer to our prayers only for the answer not to be what we are looking for and then trying to bargain for the answer we WANT. Sometimes God has to smack me right in the face for me to accept His answer, and at times that smack is felt deep into the core of my soul, as was the smack on Sunday night. To tell ya the truth it was almost like hearing, but I guess more of a feeling of "Okay girl, you have done enough, you have tolerated enough, you have prayed and now I am answering. You aren't going to like My answer but it is what has to happen. Now you go rest....I GOT THIS!" It is the only explanation I can give for me being able to hold myself together as well as I did.

I have accepted there is no more I can do and that I am done. I am done because I know God will have to handle it from here. Instead of being egotistical and keep thinking "I can fix this" I am being humbled and saying "Thanks God! Thank You for taking over. Thank You for blessing me with Your love and wisdom and teaching me I am only human. I leave it in Your hands now and I will rest". Since doing this I have not had one headache, my hands are not going numb on me, my neck isn't hurting and even the cracking I hear when I move it is minimal and I have felt more energized than I have in months. I will stay out of the way and just let God do His work.

 God has blessed me not only with His love, but the love of so many others in my life that are always there for me when I feel I am the most alone. So yes...no matter the situation I face I do realized I am still blessed!

29 comments:

  1. great realization!! sounds like it was the right prescription:-) thanks for the gentle reminder to all of us to "let go and trust God"

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  2. I am crying! I share these feelings more than you know Okie and this past Sundsy had to let go and just make the hard decision myself as well. Wow how I want to just talk to you right now! Thank you for posting this! It has blessed my heart so much!

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  3. Wow, I hope you recover from whatever was bothering you :) Super hugs from me to you :)

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  4. Okie - I am so glad I checked into your blog today. I have an ongoing issue which has become unbearable to deal with and I haven't been sleeping for the past week over it. Then I read your blog and realized that my ego is also getting in the way and I'm not letting God handle it - I'm tired of "fixing" things and, hopefully, I'll be able to just turn this problem over to Him and get some sleep.

    Thank you so much for sharing - it helps to know that I'm not alone in dealing with this problem - you are so wise!!!!

    And, it also helps to reinforce that we all are blessed!!

    Love 'ya,
    Jackie

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  5. Can't even begin to think what you have been going through - but lots of hugs coming your way and wow what a thought provoking post. Karon.

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  6. Big hugs Shirley! I always feel better when I just turn to God and say "It's all in Your Hands". Somehow God knows what He is doing and we can all do better if we accept that rather than worrying ourselves to death. You will be in my prayers!

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  7. Okie,
    Thank you for sharing and being an inspiration. I'm so glad I stopped by your blog today.

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  8. Bless you Okie. Keep the faith and you will be fine. Thanks for giving your thoughts on your beliefs. I too feel there is a higher power and we don't have to belong to an organized religion to talk to Him. May your burdens be light and your heart healed.

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  9. I completely agree with what you have said. I remember picking up a friend who had attended a 'silent' weekend retreat. When I picked her up, I ended up chatting with someone else who attended the same retreat who asked if I had ever thought about coming. I explained that the idea of a 'silent' retreat had never appealed to me. This person then replied that she had never realized how much God was talking to her until she actually took the time to be silent and listen. Wow, God was screaming in my ear with that statement and I finally listened. I'm so glad that you could hear his message and am glad that it is bringing you peace.

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  10. So good to read that you "let go and let God." You are a stronger more beautiful person for it.

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  11. So happy that you have found some peace and solace.

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  12. My thoughts and prayers are with you, amen.

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  13. May God continue to hold your hand and lead you on the path that's best for you!

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  14. Shirley, I am so happy for you that you have found a way to let go and ease your stress. I don't know your particular situation, but I completely understand the feelings of stress brought on by events and people and situations that we have no control or power to fix.

    For your own health and mental well being, I'm glad that you have taken the actions (or non actions) that have.

    Stay well and know that in the end, all will work out for the best.

    Big Hugz to you!
    Carol

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  15. Thank you for sharing and the reminder to let God take the lead. May all go well for you now and in the future.
    Hugs, CyndiU

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  16. Okie I have never corresponded with you before but follow you all the time. I just want to tell you that sharing your faith like that is a blessing . You never know who you might help and God Bless you.
    Just have to share this my mom was a wonderful christian lady whom truly loved the lord but she was also a worrier worried all the time. I would remind her that she had put it in gods hands but part of the deal was she couldn't take it back she just had to let go and let god do his will

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  17. Okie so very well said. You have an uncanny way of writing that each reader feels like it is their story and their life. By you being so open and sharing those deep rooted feelings you have you are not only healing yourself but everyone that reads your post. I don't know you personally feel like you are a dear friend to me.
    I love your statement about politics and religion it just how I feel but you put it into words so well.
    Thanks for always sharing your wonderful outlook on things and your spirit. You should consider being a writer, you are excellent at putting things into words
    HUGS
    Donna

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  18. Okie I hear you! We share the same feeling about religion and politics and God. You are so right to trust the the Spirit. I like to think of what we call God as a The Spirit of Light. No one has corrupted my thoughts about that. The "God " or Spirit I know is LOVE which is always understanding and helpful never vindictive or revengeful.
    Sending blessings of peace to you so that you can keep strong in you decisions.
    Hugs, Linda

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  19. I found you because of the paper crafting projects. I keep coming back because you're such a positive person. I love your posts, both the crafty and non crafty. You are truly a beautiful person. Thank you.

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  20. isn't it awesome when we put our burdens back in the hands of our God and just let go....I can hear our Lord say "well done my child"
    yes you are blessed.....

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  21. Understanding you, praying for you, blessed that you share with us.
    Thank-you
    Sandy R. MN

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  22. Thank you for the reminder that sometimes we need to sit back and let God do what he does best... which is look after us! Coming from another spiritual person who is not religious...

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  23. Hey Sweet Girl.... all I can say is God Bless You and be well!

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  24. Your writings are ...so...perfect!
    Thank you for being you and sharing yourself with us.
    I jabber to God all day long and when I get the answer, it's like, wham up side the head, okay, then try to remember to thank him and ask for forgiveness.
    Amazing how God works and how our lives tend to mimic each other.

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  25. Okie I have never posted on your blog before but after reading this I feel I need to. We love you so much, you are the closest friend I have and I feel you are doing the right thing. I undersdtand what you are saying and what you are doing by letting the Lord handle this situation is the best thing for you. I worry about you a lot and I have told you this, but the Lord will guide you thru. We will always be here for you.
    Love ya

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