Saturday, March 28, 2009

It's official...

quitting smoking can cause insanity. If you don't believe me just ask anyone that I have had contact with this last week and a half. I am able to hold myself together for work but after that.....well......not so much *okie sighs as a tear runs down her cheek*. I still have my ringer turned off on my phone since I never know what kinda things will spew from my mouth when I answer the phone. It is better this me.

My cousin Lisa somehow thinks I need to be posting to my blog about what I am thinking and such. I think she just wants to read about my misery, as if hearing me talk about it on the phone isn't enough.....NNOO NOT FOR HER!! SHE WANTS EVERYONE TO HEAR MY MISERY! *okie hopes her dear cousin Lisa chokes on the cigarette she is smoking*. Evidently she shared my quitting smoking with her brother Greg, who says I need to get the patch. I think from what she told him he is afraid I might be homicidal *okie wonders how cousin Greg knows okie so well when they rarely get to see each other*.

My friend Scrappinbee, aka Carmen 1, aka Thang 1 and newest aka Agnes is able to tolerate me. She laughs at me a lot and ignores a lot of what I am saying *okie now wonders if not smoking is making her more lucid and that Carmen has always ignored her or if it is just recently*. I must give Bee her props as she is willing to talk to me every day, which is more than I can say for most people in my life at this point. She puts up with my little exorcist episodes where terrible things find their way out of my vocal cords. I think even the tone might be a little, er....uhh...possessed sounding *okie shrugs* maybe Bee keeps a cross and holy water handy.

My friend ScrapperDelighted, aka Carmen 2, Thang 2, tries to distract me with virtual shopping. She isn't quite as brave as Bee. She waits for me to call her. She is supportive and does answer her phone, she doesn't try to rush off the phone either! *okie thinks Delighted is rather brave this way* She does try to give me encouragement about my decision.

My daughter is surviving through all this. She tries to stay away from me most of the time. I know I have hurt her feelings a few times. She will leave the house and text me "what is wrong with you". WHAT THE %$@K*&% &#** DOES SHE THINK IS WRONG WITH ME! Actually she knows.....she is truly being patient with me I think. I know she is proud of my decision as she has wanted me to quit smoking for years and years. When she is home she stays in her room most of the time or sleeps. I have to admit she is a pretty smart kid.

*okie sighs deeply* I want to make something. I look over at all my stuff and keep thinking I WANT TO MAKE SOMETHING! But it doesn't happen. I get over to my table, look at my stuff and then just walk away. Maybe I will try tonight....maybe just maybe I can make something...*okie walks over to her craft table wondering how well glitter cardstock will roll and smoke*


  1. I am proud of you! Blogging will help you look back many years from now and also be proud that you did it.

  2. Okie- so proud of you for quitting smoking. Keep it up!!!

    I'm sure your friends and family will tolerate your attitude because they understand.

    Stay Strong.

    ps: I don't think glitter cardstock will taste very good if you smoke it. It'll work better in your LOs or your cards. LOL

  3. Okie, you posting on your blog daily is a great idea! it will also let us know you are ok and not locked up somewhere ;-) You stay strong and know that your friends are sticking by you NO MATTER what comes out of your mouth.
    **I will be right there with you in a few days as i plan on the last day of March to be the last day I smoke** DH is not going to quite with me :-( but at least I only smoke out back and in my car. So I'll just lock my self in my craft room :-)
    If you need me to do the sketch challenge let me know ( it was a blast to post before Shelly LOL)
    Stay strong and DONT smoke glitter!!

  4. Oh dear Okie, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with us. It gives me so much encouragement to know I'm not the only crazy one, and you just crack me up with your funny comments!

  5. Hi Okie,

    Glad you're posting. I was pretty sure I was going to need an exorcism when I stopped. But, the good news is, we get through it and come out stronger on the other end. We just try not to trip over the bodies that lay strewn in our path. Stopping smoking is a really, really hard thing to do but so worthwhile. Keep at it. Besides, you can blame anything you say on the nicotine withdrawal.

  6. You can do it! Besides, think how much longer you will be around to create for all those people who were sweet enough to gather their $$ together to buy you the expression (& I wasn't one of them! I just thought that was the sweetest thing!). I have gotten tons of inspiration from you- keep strong!! Insanity isn't ALL bad :-)

  7. It is difficult to quit smoking but I can promise it does get easier. Sunflower seeds help. Take deep breaths and count to 10, the urge will go away. Keep your mind busy. Congrats, I know it is tough.

  8. Okie, hang in there! Here is routing for you - you are doing something amazing by quitting smoking! and in the long run, you will benefit with being healthier! go okie, go!

  9. Bless your heart. What you are doing is hard. Very hard. But it will be worth it. Look at all the money you'll save! And your skin will be nicer and food will taste better. I don't know why, but it just happens that way. I've been there, done that... I can truly relate. But it will get better. Just give it time. Oh, and WAY TO GO! This could be the best decision you'll ever make. Hang in there.

  10. Hang in there kiddo! I have a friend who quit smoking and started eating baby carrots to keep her sane...carrots by the bag!
    You are in my thoughts. This is a rough patch, but it will get better! I love your blog! Mary

  11. I'm very proud of you!! I know it is a very hard thing to do. I quit 4 years ago & know what your going through. Keep up the good work.

  12. OKIE
    I kept a travel size tube of toothpaste in my pocket every time I wanted a cig I would Lick it.. It hELped me.. My Hubbie is still alive too..
    HUGS U can do it!! U can do anything!!

  13. okie,
    you totally crack me up!! i love your blog!! but seriously great job on quiting smoking!! if it makes you feel better i went today to get 2 only 2 packs and it was $15.87!!! holy!!! yeah think how much scrap stuff you can get saving that every 2 days!!!! great job and hang in there!!!

  14. Okie it's really hard to quit but it's doable...I know cause I quit almost 2 yrs. ago. I'll admit I snuck a few here & there but I'm not smoking the pack a day I did for many yrs. I'm proud of you.

    Just keep trying girl, you can do it.

    Hugs, Janis